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i wish you could pick me up from school. i wish you could make me dinner. i wish we could go to the beach together. i wish i could hear you coming down the hallway. i wish you were friends with my bestfriends moms. i wish i could introduce you to the boys i like. i wish you could lay in my bed next to me until i fall asleep. i wish i could have the kind of relationship most 17 year old girls have with their mother. the distance tears us apart, no matter how hard we try. i don’t wanna have to ask you to skype, i wanna call you from the stairs until you come up to me. i don’t wanna have to always ask for your address, i want us to have the SAME address. i wish you were here. i wish i could remember what it was like to be a normal family. you, dad, me, and my sister. i know it could be worse, but it still hurts..everyday. i miss you mommy, i love you. i wish things were different.

— 1 year ago
#mom  #daughter  #family  #love  #divorce  #hurt  #miss  #sad  #change  #growing up  #without you 
flash back.

there we were, laying face to face on this california king bed. white fluffy pillows held our heads up as we laughed, talked, and enjoyed our friday night. it was the first time we spent this much time together in months. you pulled me closer to you, and planted your lips right on mine. “I love you.” you said. my mind raced, telling me not to fall for this again. it’s what we do. the strength of our love brings us back to eachother, but not long after, we fall apart. i can’t let you back because it will hurt too much to lose you again. “Don’t say that..” i firmly ordered. but you didn’t listen. you said it again. this time slower, pushing the hair away from my eyes, “I. Love. You.” i gazed at you for a long moment. sliding my hand down your face to your chest, i whispered, “I love you too.”

— 2 years ago
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baby;

trying to do what is best for me by letting you go. but then i always remember that you’re the one who brings out the best in me. i love you & i want to scream it to the world. i love you. please tell me you feel it too

— 2 years ago
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i remember our first kiss. every detail of it. what made it so special? i wasn’t expecting it, at all. one second we were hugging; the next, your lips were softly pressed against mine. the tingling feeling all over my body lasted for hours and hours.

— 2 years ago
#kiss  #first kiss  #love  #boy and girl  #young 

i love you, and everything about you. so badly i want to be with you, regardless of the past and how you hurt me. you’re always in my heart, but i keep my distance because i want you to be happy. it honestly kills me knowing we will never work out the way i want. we could be in a room full of celebrities, money, & all other appealing things..but i would only see you. your laugh, your scar, the way you speak too fast when your angry. i love that when you give me that certain look right before you kiss me, i get butterflies. when we sit there staring into eachothers eyes, i know that we have a deep, real connection, but you don’t know how to accept it and let it be. you can’t handle commitment yet, and i’m not sure how much longer i can wait. just remember that i love you, and i don’t care what anyone has to say about it.

— 2 years ago with 4 notes
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